Had to block an account I thought had decent meta takes bc they were calling certain shippers of their fandom “freaks who should just stop. people with no morals that propagate harmful things in real life”. Didn’t get to the kill yourself and should dissapear from the face of Earth levels, but very much giving those vibes. Goddamn, good to know you’ve drunk from the anti crowd pro-censure kool-aid before I actually followed or reblogged anything from you. Now I take everything they ever said with a grain of salt lol. Could have just stoped at “I don’t undertand why they ship that, I see “that pairing” in a platonic way, but to each their own” and it’d been perfectly acceptable but they had to go the extra mile to imply certain people in their fandom were freaks with no rights.

A funny thing of me having read The Atlas Six is that I only knew the book before reading it, for like, one or two artsy photo collages with a quote under it. And the sinopsis before reading it. That was it. I had no idea it was super popular (bc I have no TikTok nor will I) nor did I research reviews or anything. I just saw it and I was like: oh that book seemed interesting by that quote, gotta read the sinopsis. Then I got it and I finished in one night. No having expectations is such a sweet thing too. I had forgotten what that felt like.

Today I read like 4?5? chapters of Gideon the Ninth. I haven’t been spoiled on it, miraculously, although I’ve heard people praise the book a lot. And some funny sinopsis with no spoilers, the kind that tumblr loves. Read a crossover of dubious quality like almost two years ago with MDZS where I was: who are these two girls wtf is going on.

Speed-read the Iron Widow and wow. Although the execution isn’t nowhere perfect, and could be better, I loved the charas and the worldbuilding! It was a pastiche but a nice one that worked with the book instead of against it, and I’m hoping we’ll see more of it in the second with that ending! Gave Ender’s Game vibes too… And also that creepy book where teenagers that behave badly are discomposed in a conscious operation to donate all their organs, what with Shimin state at the end. Gods I hope he comes back as a cyborg or something.

Wu Zetian rage and all of her, her ocasional blindness bc of it, for all the bad shit and trauma of her life, is such a good fem protag. Read someone saying it’d been better if she was meeker at the begining? And like, sorry, if she were she would have died on Yang G(whatevs) head on her first try. Or the story wouldn’t exist. There’s thousand of heroines that start meek, let Wu Zetian know exactly what she want and take all the steps to her ends and ambitions. Gods it was such a relief. How she wants so badly to love and be loved but no-one besides Yizhi and later Li Shimin (bc her sis is dead now) gave her that, and even then, how she doubts herself bc patriarchy fucked up her life so badly.

Also, everybody saying Yizhi is the sweet one, and like, compared to Zetian, sure, even with Shimin bc all he has suffered, but he’s a very determined fucker. Love to see him pulling strings for his two pilots and enabling their violence, and being down to murder. I feel like I was missing his and Shimin PoV’s sometimes. I just know those two had their conversations off page and i would love to have a window to their part of the triangle. Really more time in developing all sides all the relationship would been welcome, I feel like it jumped time very fast sometimes… 

I hope they three can get together again in the second book, but I’m holding my breath. Li Shimin doesn’t deserve to end on the hands of new jailers just when he had found  acceptance and happiness again ;_; (In my opinion, he’s the sweetest violence and murders non-withstanding, a rugged sort of kindness)

Contemplating the fact that my chinese isn’t good enough yet to read webnovels (most of all because I’m into the fantasy xianxia kind and the historical ones and wuxia, and like, the vocabulary there is not cotidiane and more specialised) and pondering which translations of 2HA I could read: two in English, of dubious quality both, and the one in Latin American Spanish, which I think takes from the English one and translates very literally and is overall weird to me as a Spaniard. Because it seems like it’s badly translated when half the time it’s just it’s using common latam wording, and the other half akward chinese phrase structure. 

And still, I read the first two books in English, the third in the Spanish translation; and although overall the Spanish one was more difficult to me because of my familiarity with my native tongue, when I switched back to English bc I was tired of reading and rewording words in my head, I went to reread the last part I was in the Spanish version, and it was very emotional and I had tears in my eyes in it, and in the English one it didn’t process. The emotion wasn’t there. At all.

I felt very weirded out?? That the reasonance wasn’t there…. No that I didn’t cry again; it usually just impacts me the first one or two times and then I just feel very deeply but not cry. But there wasn’t deep feeling on my chest or anything. I commented to my mother in it and she said it made sense because English feels very cold and it has no poetry in comparison with other languages (her opinion people, which I happen to partially agree with. i think that to us, spanish speakers, it seems so bc we aren’t english lol) and I went mmm. Maybe??

But I read fics and books in English and cried lots? Over two years ago I went into the Silm fandom and the amount of tears I cried could fill an ocean, so overwhelmed I was by the writting. And ok, the quality there is super high, so maybe it isn’t fair, but compared to other people I know I get really into the stories I like and cry easily. In Spanish, in English, in Japanese…

So I suppose is the Chinese translation into English what wasn’t working for me there?? And now I’m super frustrated, bc its left me with no option but to go back to the, for me, incredibly frustrating Spanish version bc it may tire me, and make me want to like, break something, but at least there I get a sense of the depth of emotion of the original.

Listened to old BTS songs, from the HYYH full album and also Wings, and I’m like. Oh, i like these ones best because every other song has a violin (or more than one) doing a melody underneath. And it gives these songs a very unique feel? To be fair I haven’t listened to anything beyond shadow: interlude and black swan (orchestral version) and ON lol and I mean that from 7 I listened to those three on repeat, did once the rest and proceeded to forget about the album. Until like, yesterday didn’t even notice there was an album after that. I don’t like very much the new style? But I tend to go or for ballads or for angsty, so yeah Wings and LY: Tear (plus songs form the HYYH era) is both when I started listening to their music and where I stayed lmfao. Also those videos are the prettiest? Not the most elaborate or anything, but very nostalgic and/or gothic.

I really feel sad for you all native speakers that in English the word “madrugada” doesn’t exist. You have early morning, deep into nighttime, at daybreak, etc, but not a word for the concept of those hours between 1 am and 5-6 am where everything is dark and the night seems endless, and people are still around in the streets walking or talking or driking and dancing at weekends and summer-nights. For the hours of working or studying so late you end up with raccon eyes, and the silence deep when you look out of your window before finally going to bed.

“Madrugar” with the same root, is a verb that means to make an early morning, that is, to wake up very soon, sooner than normal or than it is reasonable. But “la madrugá” comes before that. It’s its own delimited space.

English has a weird word for the hours between the fall of the sun and dinner, “Evening”, that in Spanish simply doesn’t exist either. It’s directly from “tarde” (afternoon) to “noche” (night) although sometimes you can hear “tarde-noche” for when in winter the sun comes down at 5-6 pm just with “la merienda” (mid-afternoon meal, like a breakfast but for afternoons) and dinner still doesn’t happen until 10 pm.

In the same way you all live life in a way that make “evening” an useful word, we in Spain (dunno other spanish-speaking countries, just talking for mine) talk about the madrugada and we meant activity late into the night that is understood in a context by other spaniards that in English is completely absent. It’s strange.

I have no idea how poetry functions in English and at this point I’m afraid to ask.

Yes, I said this as someone who has written some or other poem in English; however I’m literally translating what I do when I compose in Spanish, and I’ve just realised I have no fucking idea how English entonation works because this shit mishmash language doesn’t have tonic silabes the way spanish does and whatever you guys call metric is incomprehensible. What the hell is that iambic? lambic? parameter? thingy that shakespeare loved to use???

I should probably investigate this more but. Ugh, the laziness. Japanese poetry makes more sense in comparison bc at least the sylabes whole everything are very much like in Spanish >-< Unique things unique to japanese non withstanding.